some people only see the world
through their eyes
and think
I know better
I know how you should feel
some people can’t turn themselves upside down
it’s not their fault
it’s how they were raised
to compare themselves with everyone else
to see money as the ultimate power
to breed greed
to spawn ridicule
to undo imagination
to kill the creative spirit
you just have to keep believing in your art
in your path
some people can’t see how the other dimension
is the ultimate high
and being naked
is how you see the truth.
Tag: poem
“Measured Teaspoons” from LOVE & METAXA
https://www.iambapoet.com/christina-strigas
If you click on the link you will find three of my poems published on Iamb Poetry and my voice recordings of each one. “Measured Teaspoons” is from my new poetry book, Love & Metaxa, which just went live yesterday, and is available to purchase on all online bookstores.
Measured Teaspoons
Who loves me anymore?
People like to rehash old said shit,
From five years ago …
You punched a door,
There’s still a wrecked hole to remind me.
Pin their poetry on your forehead.
Jinx, touch red,
it’s identical now.
Someone brings you red wine
you smile
taking about reading and writing
you try to tell a joke
fail miserably.
Look around the room like a stranger.
That’s not what I meant at all.
Who loves me anymore?
They see me with fugitive themes,
Forgive me for always leaving,
Flinch at the sign of my danger
Writers like to
play sex games in the day,
hunting
Adventurous and dangerous love.
I can never tell who wants me,
Damaged and wounded from giving away
My secrets for cash or fantasies for free,
Or if they do
My ego never knows,
Did you take out the garbage?
I can never tell time anymore.
It keeps rambling on and on like a song on the radio
you can’t listen to anymore
Indifferent to the wrinkles on my skin.
It’s not Friday today? When was my birthday?
I may be losing my witching powers,
Maturing into the skin of my mother and father
Perhaps they never existed,
Maybe normality is flowing stillness into my veins,
I have become what they feared.
Old and out of date,
Expired.
I have walked into a party
In the wrong era’s outfit,
And when you try to explain it:
The meaning of poetry,
When they ask,
Why you’re wearing nylons with sandals,
You keep repeating,
Because I want to.
Yet you realize no matter
How you express yourself
What you really want to say is:
That’s not what I meant at all.
Montreal Canadians Win
I don’t know how the Montreal Canadians
win games
they were not meant to
or keep holding on
when the world expects
them to let go
this is how the Montreal Sky
has a unique sunset
each night
and no one
gambles on points
or clouds
I was teaching
Go habs go
so I only saw the last 4 minutes
no way
that you can bet on
love like you bet
on a hockey game
love is unexpected
and hits you
most
when you think
you are over someone
when you are rooting
for the other side.
This is not the last time
I will write about you and hockey.
It’s only the beginning of the end.
Remember that time on the couch
when you turned to me and said
I love it when you watch the game with me
even though I was on the phone the entire time
you still felt closer
warmer
less alone.
what is said and what is done
you can’t trust a stranger with your truth
you get fed up of speaking so much
and listening to so little. you can ask
a question and it turns into an accusation.
you can guess his name, but he changes
the letters on you. you can tell him
i love you
he’ll stare at you
as if you should not have said that
and when you turn your back
he’ll respond
i love you
years later, and you will wonder
does he even mean it
is he saying that to shut me up?
you can love him
so much the ache keeps you up at night.
you can stare at his photo all you want
but his sunglasses are always on
he won’t look you in the eye,
he won’t fight for you, he won’t
make you pick. he wants you
sitting tight, never asking
where he goes, or why he only
shows you what he wants
you to know. he is happy
not having all of you.
he only wants you for an hour
not eight.
don’t take it personal
he told you so
but he refuse to listen
when you should.
it’s fine now, after seven years
you finally realized
he has been telling you
the truth all along
you just didn’t pay attention.
black coffee and philosophy
My black coffee is warm, the sun is peeking.
It said 7:02. I don’t understand
how phones can answer most of my questions
except the philosophical ones of how you can
be one person with two eyes
and another with an eye in the middle. It seems
most men are like this, it’s not a surprise.
I learned it from young, but the hope keeps
rising like your hardness. I wished I never
saw you now. I wished I never knew you now.
I thought you were someone else, excuse me.
I thought you spoke my language, you never
did. You researched me, googled me, and
made my name too large in print. It’s just a
name. I’m no one special. You’re the radiohead
song.
I think I see you everywhere, but
the truth is, all these thoughts are pointless.
My coffee is still warm and my libido
is still alive. I’m baking lemon cakes
now, I’m wearing no underwear.
I’m mentally ill now, I’m going crazy.
Aren’t you happy for me? I may even
try to kill myself for you. Wouldn’t
you love to have a trophy of all
of us? Lined up and direct
in reality
telling you how we are all so crazy,
so nuts–
to for have fallen for you.
don’t bother
to call me, I blocked your number,
don’t bother to search for me, I left your city,
don’t bother to want me, move onto the one from Ottawa,
she’s closer to home. Don’t bother to create new blogs
to scare me, it only makes me think you’re insane.
Don’t bother to come here, my city is dead.
Don’t bother to pretend, I see through your
disguise. Don’t bother to text me, I delete
and forget. Don’t bother to read me, it’s old
trauma news. you need a new fix, a new
supply and I’m so cold now. it’s like i’m
dead, i’m not even breathing. you knew
me once, don’t bother to bring up the past,
i’ve dug a whole in the train tracks.
isn’t it better this way? i can read books
i can leave my phone under a car seat
i can stop caring, looking, being your drug
you so easily replace me, from the one one before,
after, and now. it’s the present. you better
make your move, message her, tell her
all the lies, trap her, entice her, do
your dirty deeds, it’s the only way. i can’t wait
to be forgotten. please forget me.
don’t bother to find me. i’m in a new life.
everyone is wearing them now
before this pandemic we wouldn’t even know
the truth from the lies
how lovers should understand more
how lovers should never be bored
with each other. with their skin
yet here we are in masks worn thin
and we have not even left the house.
You’re on my mind, like a song that plays
a guitar that keeps bleeding.
a flower constantly blooming
all the impossible events
like skies that cry
words that matter.
You know what I mean
when I don’t mean it.
Yet you make me feel like a coccoon
stuck in one phase
or a glass butterfly
that never changes;
a gift from my birthday
you never wrapped up.
You should have done all the things
you meant to do.
not merely talk about them
drunk one night
that doesn’t count.
In death
people don’t disappear
they brighten up and write poems
on the other side of the sky
wait for you to decipher
their lines.
They bury the flowers
you planted and eat your leftover soup
even if living with the dead was hard
their life in your hands
is as comparable
as empty hands and brick walls.
Daily Twitter Writing
There are so many writing prompts on Twitter. I recently discovered the website below to refer to…you can always check out Ariel Poets and use our hashtag #arielpoets on Twitter.
This month”s writing prompt is sadness and madness..
Mountain Daisy
#januaryfalls18
Poetry prompt on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/fallspoetry